ARTIST STATEMENT

Hi. I’m Anchovy.

No wait, please, don’t go. I swear that’s my name.

Look, sit down… could I get you anything?

Tea? Gin? Weed? Wait, I don’t have weed.

Fuck, I’m fucking up, let me try this again.

 

I’m Anchovy.

And I have…

a hard time             connecting             with people.

 

Well, my name’s Anchovy,

what did you expect?

 

It feels like, there’s this

film.

It’s all around me, this thin membrane.

I have to, like, reach out through it

it feels like i’m always the one reaching out

To, like, CONNECT to people

 

Maybe it started when my dad left

Whoa bebe now there’s a cliche (sorry about that)

Maybe it’s cuz my mom always says I don’t care about her

Maybe it’s because my step brother-

        Nope.

        Not

        Gonna

        Go

        There.

 

ANYWAY I used to reach out

a lot

But now it’s like I’m numb

or something.

I fell in love too much, had too many friends ditch me

fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

I don’t really feel like I’m here

ya know?

 

BUTT

Some things bring me back  

Some people.

And when I hold them, or kiss them, or fuck them, or even just talk to them

I feel…

Less…

Bad? Distant? Fake?         Alone.

I feel less alone.

 

So I paint these people,

These moments of connection

Cement them in oil, document my own history

My own art history

My own anthology

So I can remember what it feels like

To not be alone.

I’m weird.

Sorry

Not sorry

Still sorry

I like WEIRD things, okay?

fuck yea suck on my toes cunt i know you like it

FUCK YOU’RE GONNA BE ALONE YOU STUPID FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT NO ONE LIKES YOU YOU MOTHER FU-

 

These are weird paintings, okay?

These are the things I see in my head

How I interpret the moments

 

Look,

I know how to get you to like me

I know how to paint pretty for you

 

But when you look

Passed

The nice technique

And see how

                weird

These paintings are

 

 

                                                                                      Will you stick around?